Not Wanted Here

I‘m sitting here under your window pane, wondering why I don’t belong here anymore,

And I’m sitting here trying to figure out how it is you can just walk away, just shut the door,

Thinking about what I should have said, and how sometimes things just don’t work out,

It’s ok, I had my doubts,

Throwing rocks onto the ledge I hum a tune that belongs to us, my dear,

For I’m not wanted here,

I’m not wanted here, not there, no not anywhere,

I keep hiding in the shadow of your mistakes, but you don’t seem to care,

Can’t seem to understand how fast I sank,

My memory just faded and my mind, completely blank,

Forgetting all my current thoughts, I lay there in the sweet summer grass and let go,

I feel as if my conscience rambles on without my saying so,

I rest my head and close my eyes,

But still I can’t forget all your lies,

Not one,

Your sad apology rings in and out and still your damage has been done,

Lying there, passing thoughts through my head,

I wonder how you could be so blind to the winding road ahead,

Throwing my rocks aside, I hum our tune my dear,

For I’m not wanted here.

<3 Webster

Just Because You're in Love

Put your foot on the peddle and run away to the shore,

Tell me your mind’s made up and you’ve never wanted anything more,

Tell me this is everything you need and what your dreams are made of,

Just don’t tell me you’re leaving me, just because you’re in love,

Tell me that you’re happy, completely complete,

Tell me that he makes your world colorful and sweet,

Tell me that life will be easier and a little more fun,

Just don’t tell me that this summer fling won’t ever be done,

Tell me that there’s a permanent smile drawn on your face,

Tell me that you’re ready to dream big and go out for the chase,

Tell me that you see your future so warm and so bright,

Just don’t tell me that each day spent with him serves as such a delight,

So go ahead, run away to the shore,

Tell me that you love me and you miss me more than you ever have before,

Tell me that this is real and what happiness is made of,

Just don’t tell me you forgot about me, just because you’re in love.

<3 Webster

Chattahoochie - Alan Jackson

Its nights like these when I want those nights,

Wish I could overlook your flaws an forget all our fights.

Replace all the good things with what had been so wrong,

Nothing more could have felt so right,

I wish I could feel that kind of love again,

Loving every second of my life, cherishing every place we had been,

Looking after this time that is now irreplaceable,

But somehow my mind keeps begging me to make these memories untraceable...

Only a Picture

Sitting here, I’m frozen in your warm, study glance,

For eyes so tender and sweet, you hold me here in this sinister trance,

I never thought it possible that I’d ever see you again,

I was left with only your memory and the question of what could have been,

Caught up in this moment, my body sits stagnant, here,

Taking in this memory of a time you held so dear,

I would give anything to sit like this for as long as I live,

I’m tired of always wondering what I could have changed; I have nothing left to give,

I let go a sigh as I get to my feet,

A sure sigh of another defeat,

I walk to the light switch, and look up at the bulb, shaky in the fixture,

As I remind myself, it was only a picture.

<3 Webster

Poisen

Moonlight fills my surroundings as my vision twists and turns,

I can feel it as it trickles down, I can feel it as it burns,

Watch me stumble as I try to regain my poise,

Not caring what happens to me or the blessings it destroys,

Covering up what so badly I want but is no longer mine,

Let the feeling of someone there next to me and the poison, combine,

Be a different person, be stronger then you are,

Drink the liquid fire down; leave not a drop in the jar,

Fill yourself with this sin, so easily contained,

Watch as the pain disappears and your sorrows rearranged,

Moonlight fills my surroundings as my vision twists and turns,

Live for this feeling, the power and the burn.


**To Kellie :) Happy 21st!

For Just One Second

Give me your eyes just for a second so I can make you see,

All that's been done here, everything you've done to me,

Look my way for just a second, so you can see just what he's done to you,

So I can show you what to do,

Why can't you see what he's done, why can't you realize what he's destroyed,

Please don't continue to sit there when I can see that you're annoyed,

Be the man I know you can be and fix what you let go,

Give me your eyes for one minute so you know how much you hurt me, All I want is you to know,

Step into my shoes, but don't try to run,

Even as watching you fall would be my idea of fun,

Don't let him do this, don't let him ruin you,

Give me your eyes for just one minute so I can show you what you do,

So I can take you back to when you held my hand,

Maybe then for just one second you will understand,

Just help me believe it was all his fault, for it can't be yours,

You would never hurt me like this, you said you'd never leave me behind this closed door,

Lend me your eyes for just one second so you can help me to see,

Help me to understand why you've done this to me,

Look into my eyes, like you used to do back then, 

Give me your heart for just one more second, so that I can feel like me again.

A Cheater's Heart

I can see it, written all over your face,

You wish you could be anywhere but anywhere near this place,

But just slow it down, try to take it easy,

Don’t always think you have to try so hard to please me,

No matter what you do, you can’t get rid of me, just thought you should know,

I care too much to just let all these feelings go,

Just remember that I’ll always be right here, waiting for you to make up your mind,

Wishing I could stop time in this moment, then pause and rewind,

Don’t want to lose this feeling, a happiness new to my heart,

Don’t know what to say, what to do or even where to start,

Feel like I just got myself into something I can’t escape from,

Only ever wanting what I couldn’t have became habit that’s more than dumb,

It’s all the little things that make you feel like this,

Like when he holds you in his arms or the taste of his kiss,

Its feeling like you’re the only one, when in reality you’re nothing at all,

They are only there to catch you because they know you’re going to fall,

But you drive too fast and you love to long,

Replace real feelings for something you believe is too strong,

Spin your tires and drive away,

Listen to the rubber burn instead of the things I need to say,

Walk away from me like nothing lies between us,

If it makes you feel so good, then just throw away this trust,

Tell another lie, you make sound so good,

Make things seem like you’ve done everything you should,

Tell me what I want to hear, lay it on me thick,

Watch me as I am swept away by your clever little trick,

Lure me into a trap that’s soon to spring shut,

All the while knowing it’d leave the scar, before it’d leave the cut,

Turn me into the liar, place the blame on me,

Turn me into the bad guy or whatever you want me to be,

Pull all your puppet strings and teach me how to dance,

Play with me all you want while you hold me here in this trance,

You can play me like a record, you can take me for a spin,

But don’t expect me to coming running back to this place ever again,

Take the long road home, think about what you’ve done,

You can just think of me as a prize you’ve never really won,

A cheating heart has a different beat, a different way to feel,

Lied so much it doesn’t know what is fake and what’s always been real,

Caught between two lies but listening to your heart,

There was never a faster way to have it torn apart,

Why have I hung onto something that’s always been so fake?

Making friends out of people who never think to give before they take,

And when they take, they make sure they take the very best of you,

But it’s always going to be your fault for they were sure you always knew,

And yet the only way I’d get over you is if you were every bit of gone,

Life with you standing right here makes it so hard to move on,

Sitting here staring into your eyes,

There’s a part of me that’s hoping that this fire somehow, just dies,

Its funny how it hurts so much, but you can always see the light,

Inspiration so concrete was too much motivation for a fight,

Give me that look as you close the driver’s door,

I smile as I watch you tighten your grip and slam the peddle to the floor,

A cheater’s heart has a different beat, a different way to feel,

Should never arose a reason for my broken heart to heal,

My smile only grew bigger as, for the last time, he drove away,

A cheater’s heart has a different beat, and a different price to pay,

Slowly I turn away as the flames explode around me,

Feel the heat cures my skin as it tumbles over me, like waves of a dead sea,

Feel my heart reach out to something that’s always been too far gone,

Just had to give my heart the push to somehow move on,

The only way I’d get over him was if he were every bit of gone,

Life with him standing right here made it so hard to move on,

Sitting here, staring into his eyes,

I knew it was only a matter of time before he’d pay for all his lies.

<3 Webster

Where the Crooked Creek Lie

Jump into the cool blue water, in the heat of the night,
Drinking that poison down, gonna get good and tight,
Feel the crickets as they sing to you in the dark,
Looks like we've found a good place to park,

Yelling that Hank Williams at the top of our lungs,
Feeling that liquor on the tip of our tongues,
Watching the reflection of the moonlight shine in your eyes,
Down in our valley, were the crooked creek lies,

I can still remember that look in your eyes the day we lost Ry,
The hardest thing to do in life is to learn to say goodbye,
We kissed her for the last time before we had to let her go,
Feeling all too responsible and lower then low,

Each day we thought we'd heard her, chiming as she ran to us once more,
Not wanting to grasp the reality that she had already knocked at death's door,
Sitting there, under the stars that were now our only connection, we fell apart,
Trying to make sense of it all and mend our broken hearts,

Feeling like life wouldn't be the same, we cried for our departed Ry,
Together, yet all alone, down in our valley, were the crooked creek lies,
I come home to a mother hurting all her own,
Disapproving of my choices, doing things she did not condone,

Feel my heart break as I tell her I'm through,
Helpless to help her, not knowing what to do,
Looking into her eyes and seeing so much pain,
I knew I was selfish but no more sympathy would she gain,

I was her child torn between witnessing her sorrows and running for the door,
I couldn't put up with it, I couldn't stand to see her heart break anymore,
Helpless, I always prayed to a picture,
Begging daddy to make her feel him again, asking him to fix her,

Sitting here alone, I skip rocks on my empty thoughts, loosing the will to try,
Down in our valley, where the crooked creek lies,
I lay here now and listen to the wind,
Feeling like for some reason I have found peace from within,

I look up at the stars and see all that I desire,
Something in me changes, sets my heart on fire,
Feel like I belong here, lost among these gems,
Hearing the wind whistle through the pines like a sweet, solum hymn,

I suppose I'll remain here until the water runs dry and the old pines die,
Happy in our valley, where the crooked creek lie.

<3 Webster

Waiting on Thirteen

Scared little girl, brand new town,
Determined to make it work, cant let daddy down,
Feel the weight of the world right here on these little shoulders,
The days keep getting longer and the nights stay colder,
Lonely and alone I stay, waiting on thirteen,
More and more I try and the more I find myself stuck somewhere in between,
The world's a big place but not yet for me,
Just going through the motions like one, two and three,
Blue shining eyes knocked me off my feet,
Each day spent with him made those spring days a little more sweet,
Everyone said I was too young to know what love was, I was never heard nor seen,
Waiting on fourteen,
Summer was here and so were you,
Played a big part in everything I'd do,
I remember your shaggy hair falling over your gorgeous blue eyes,
I couldn't help but feeling I'd figured out where my heart lie,
Catching you glimpsing at me, I'd melted,
Although never admitting it, I surly felt it,
Waiting for your heart to soften,
Waiting on fifteen,
Feel my stomach lurch as the alcohol slips down,
Feeling you next to me as my world twists around,
Not remembering my words, just only that you knew,
Realized with perfect clarity that I had fallen in love with you,
Not knowing what I had done, I pass my heart to you,
Waiting on sixteen,
Freedom couldn't come fast enough and everything was free,
Feeling on top of the world with you here next to me,
Just as fast as you carried me, you let me fall,
We never had anything close to it all,
Feeling like a failure and like it was all my fault,
Waiting on seventeen,


I wish I could go back and look into my eyes,
I wish I would have been smarter not to give into all his lies,
I want so badly to warn her, that scared little girl,
Reassuring her that whiskey and cigarettes weren't going to save her world,
Lay out her footprints, at-least all that fate would allow,
Go back and beg her to listen to what I know now,
I guess its too late now and I'm just wishful thinking,
Wishing I had the power to stop this quick sand and my feet from sinking,
Stripping myself of the ignorance of that children are keen,
Wishing I could have stop and thought, while I was waiting on thirteen.

<3 Webster

If Life Was Like a Fairy-Tale

I wish like was like a fairy-tale and love was like a song,
Mistakes were like a flash of light, one second there, then gone,
I wish fear was absent and every mind was free,
I wish we could freeze and fast forward time so all of the bad things, we'd never have to see,

Yet I find comfort in knowing that life is never ending and death is just a threat,
Although each day it gets harder to live with no regret,
I find myself humbled in the remembrance from my past,
Peacefully accepting the fact that these times weren't meant to last,

I dance around in these memories that bring to me such light,
Realizing that maybe my life is a fairy-tale, if only for tonight,
Right here in this moment I spend infinite hours with you,
And I find myself thanking God for the time I've spent here with you,

I wish life was like a fairy-tale and love was like a song,
Mistakes were like a flash of light, one second there, then gone,
I wish fear was absent and every mind free,
I wish we could freeze and rewind time so I could have you here with me,

<3 Webster

Crystal Ball

I lay here uncontious in this dream,

Knowing all that is happening, yet realizing nothing is what it seems,

I can feel your eyes as you stand right behind me,

Ready to jump head first into a pandaemonium that we can not yet see, 

Somehow I fly free without a care,

All the while you are still right there,

I can feel your breath on the back of my neck,

Promising my pretentious soul that I have no need to be a nervous wreck,

Still I stand here trembling, yet I feel so secure,

Ready to open a new door, leading so different from where we were before,

Suddenly we’re falling, a feeling descending too fast inside,

Realizing with the certainty of clarity that you are the only place I have left to hide,

Turing to you, I cling to my security as still we are falling,

I open my mouth though no one hears my calling,

So happy here in your arms, but still we are descending further into this dream,

Almost hoping that this false reality would be just what it seems,

Wishful thinking is key when you want something that for now will continue to be unreachable,

Some people just don’t change, some men are plainly unteachable,

I peek away from your shoulder to look down upon our fate,

Wishing I could turn the boulders into sand before it’s all too late,

We could just float away with the ocean tide, the sand under our feet,

Still I don’t know if the sea’s mighty pulse would be enough to make your heart beat,

Longing for you to want me back again and hoping that we would never part,

Wishing to return back to what we were from the start,

But still we are falling, our fate sealed without a single word,

Nothing we’ve been through matters, not one of my cry’s heard,

Yet you’re still right there, comforting me, yet you are unwilling to fight,

It’s useless to you anymore, we’ve run out of light,

My eyes fixed on the end of the tunnel as the darkness folds around us,

Knowing soon we will lay here among these mountains on the shore, scattering like the stale salty dust,

I take one last look into your eyes before we hit rock bottom, fading into the windy waters of the cool blue,

Feeling like I may burst although I know there is nothing I can do,

Suddenly I feel my eyes burn and temporarily I am blinded,

The light beaming into my baby blues gave me some hope I could confide in,

Sorely I stretch my tired limbs, our subcontious journey over soon after it begins,

Resistantly I pull back the sheet uncovering all the insecurities now apparent in my mind,

Such mutilation of our disease is eating me alive,

I feel as if I don’t know myself, never have I doubted if we shall thrive,

I focus on the blue water which lie outside my window, so tranquil and still,

I take in my surroundings and let my senses fill,

What a world we live in seen through a crystal ball,

Not quite sure if I can agree with the cruelty of it all,

I stand here contious in what I wish was a dream,

Knowing what will happen and realizing that everything is exactly as it seems.

<3 Webster

Broken Record

Solemnly I lie here, because I know it’s all a joke,

From the moment you laid eyes on me to the very words you spoke,

Put me on a pedestal, too tall for me to see,

Never expecting me to live up to what you wanted me to be,

You put me on the player and you took me for a spin,

All the while I let myself believe this couldn’t happen again,

Played me like a record, so perfect and so sweet,

Never imagined you’d be the one who’d learn to lie and cheat,

Hoped for so long that something would prove to last,

Regardless of my struggles, regardless of my past,

Wishing for just one person to prove they’re not all the same,

I’m done getting hurt, done playing this game,

You put me on a player and you took me for a spin,

Well not anymore, not ever again.

<3 Webster