Sometimes when I’m all alone, I wonder about you,
I wonder about your smile, so genuine and true,
How your words are so overrated, yet they sound so sweet,
Then I bring myself to wonder how you can stand to hear your selfish heart, beat,
I wonder how you would feel if I filled you with lie after lie,
Built up your hope only to shatter it with goodbye,
I wonder how you’d feel if I simply shoved you aside,
It’s not my fault if you’re mad, not my problem if you cried,
I wonder how you close your manipulative eyes and go to sleep at night,
I wonder what goes through your mind day after day, after all you’re always right,
I wonder how you believe you can treat someone the way you do,
Which brings me to wonder how you expect them to ignore it, and come running back to you?
Love your neighbor as your friend, but you only love them when you need them,
Taking advantage of the fondness their hearts will always reluctantly condemn,
I wonder how I can bare to even look at you anymore,
I wonder why my feet stay planted here when I’m standing at the door,
I wonder what holds me here, so innocently caught up in you,
This manipulative stranger, anything but genuine and true,
Then I begin to wonder how I can sleep at night,
Knowing that tomorrow things will only get worse and the only thing I can count on is another fight,
I wonder how I still find it in my heart to ask God to forgive your pathetic soul,
I wonder why I waste my time with a heart that seems to be more like an endless black hole,
Yet at the same time ask God to replace my desire and fill the hole you left in my heart,
I used to ask God for us to end up together, now I only pray for the strength to wish us apart,
Sometimes when I’m all alone, I wonder about you,
Try to block out what I know deep down, is true,
I wonder how you do it, how you keep us all willingly in line,
I do believe friendship is a word you are incapable to define,
I used to wonder how I put up with you, now I continue to wonder why I do,
Sometimes when I’m all alone, I wonder about you.
<3 Webster
