Running Away

The worst pain is the pain you feel deep down inside,

You can run all you want but you can never hide,

Feeling like you’ll never be good enough,

And dealing with yourself and your life has never been this tough,

Wanting him to choose you just this once over her,

Wishing to go back to what at one time you were,

Hoping just once, you’ll fall in love again,

But that seems to be one game you know you’re never going to win,

Come home to a mother who’s hurting all her own,

Screaming arguments and hatred in her tone,

Feeling as if you only have the person you hold somewhere deep inside,

Filling your pillow with cold tears as each night you cried,

Coming home to disarray, leaving to forget,

Trying to replace your sorrows with another guilty hit,

Run away to this paradise you’ve built inside your soul,

Looking for something you’ll never have again, to fill this empty hole,

I watch from a distance as you wave goodbye,

You tell me that you’ll be back but you never could tell a lie,

Watch my best friend walk right out of my life,

All for a love he doesn’t deserve and a new kind of strife,

Hoping he’s happy because he just broke my heart,

Love was supposed to bring people together, not move them farther apart,

Life has a funny way of changing people you once knew,

Leaving you empty to know you never really had anyone but you,

Living in disarray, constantly looking for ways to forget,

Only fantasizing about the feeling as the joint is rolled and lit,

Run away to this paradise you’ve built inside your soul,

Thinking the answers to all your problems lay lit inside your bowl,

Looking into your future, you see nothing but doubt,

Trying to ignore your mistakes, attempting to block them out,

Knowing that if you hadn’t given up you could have been something great,

Not knowing what to do with a decision that somehow sealed your fate,

Running from responsibility, not wanting to grow up anymore,

Wishing to run away, curl up and lock the door,

Hiding from the world that’s brought you so much pain,

Feeling as if it’s useless and humiliation is all you have to gain,

Walk through the door as a million faces cloud your vision,

Plastic cups filled with Vodka and broken hearts to make the decisions,

Wake up to no memory of the sin you committed once more,

Can’t just clean this up like the drunken messes on the floor,

You need just one thing that takes all the pain away,

Been looking for a while but you could never get your way,

Living my life in disarray, doing anything to forget,

Stumbling on the ground before I realize the Vodka just hit,

Run away to this paradise you’ve built inside your soul,

Hopefully one day you’ll wake up and stop your feet where they are, because nothing’s ever solved with cheap Vodka or a bowl.

<3 Webster

Another Missed Memory

Tears well up like you just might lose your cool,

Your way of suppressing it, gave no exception to the rule,

Shake your head; tell me it’s all alright,

But I can tell by the look in your eyes you’ve already lost the fight,

Visions of missed memories dance throughout your dreams,

Even you didn’t think things would turn out to be what they seem,

Fight back those tears, prove my point one more time,

The more I reach for you, the further you climb,

Run away from the truth I’m so quick to discover,

You don’t have to say a word; I know that you still love her,

Even as I’m in your arms, I know she has your heart,

I had figured this would happen, I should have known from the start,

You promise you’re happy with me, that I’m the on you want,

But honey, we both know we can be all non-chalet,

I can’t keep pretending to overlook your tears,

I can’t replace the memory you’ve been missing all these years,

Sitting there I crumble as I watch your heart break,

Question my standing here and how much more of this I can take,

Even when she no longer has him, he’s still caught up in her,

Instead of thinking of our future he only dreams of what they were,

I hear you draw in a breath for you know that I know,

You don’t want to lose me but you just can’t let her go,

Knowing what I have to do, I slowly turn away,

There’s nothing you need to explain, there’s nothing you can say,

I see you break down as you whisper, ‘you mean too much to me’,

But I refuse to replace such a missed memory.

<3 Webster

Here With Me

I watch the sun come up in the blue of your eyes,

And I feel your heart beat as here with me, you lie,

And I feel your warmth as it showers over me,

Then I wonder how a blind man could have never wanted to see,

I can see your smile held back on your lips,

Admiring me from head to toe, from my eyes down past my hips,

I can hear your thoughts as you think ‘how beautiful can she get’,

And I’m watching from a distance as your desire stand, lit,

I can feel your eagerness as its sent straight to my heart,

And I send up a prayer asking God that we’ll never grow apart,

I watch the sun go down in the blue of your eyes,

I feel your heart beat as here with me, you lie.

<3 Webster

Over Rated

Never felt a feeling like this, never was it this strong,

But tangled in its emotions, something’s terribly wrong,

We were built like a fire, to withstand all the heat,

But there’s something darker waiting there, plotting its deceit,

My hearts lie in shambles, my mind torn in two,

I either endure this pain, or I live without you,

I can’t see myself loving any other man; no one appeals the same,

I place this on your shoulders; on you I place the blame,

I had no idea falling in love would be this complicated,

If I had only known, I would have figured this love was overrated.

<3 Webster

If I Were to Die Today

If I were to die today, would you shed your tears?

Would you look back on your time spent with me and cherish all those years?

Would you glance at my picture as tears streamed down your face?

Or would you bring your heart to remember that I’m in a better place?

If I were to fade away, become a phantom from your past,

Would you acknowledge me or hide from the shadows that I cast?

Would you cherish and celebrate the time I spent here?

Or would you throw me away as if I was an unwanted fear?

If I told you after today, you’d never see me again,

Would you lie in your warm bed at night and dream of the places we’ve been?

Would you crave to rewind time just to feel my presence like so many times before?

Or would you let your restless mind wonder just so you won’t hurt anymore?

If I were to die today, would you regret all the times you hurt me?

Would you feel remorse for all the times you weren’t the man you were supposed to be?

Would you wish you had told me what had always been on your mind?

Or would you see it fit to just leave that all behind?

If I told you, you would lose a friend today, would you ask me why?

Would you care enough to get an explanation, or would you simply wave goodbye?

Would I have mattered enough to you to make you appreciate what you once had?

Or would you ignore my memory, the good and the bad?

If I were to die today,

Would you simply smile and trust that I’m okay?

Would you finally grow up and be the man you never told anyone you wanted to be?

Or would I have to die, before you’d admit that you had ever loved me?

<3 Webster

On Top of the World - Boys Like Girls

Like the Fools We're Not

I’m done, I’m sick and tired of this mess,

Tired of playing hide and seek, tired of always having to second guess,

I’m done with your drama, too much lost at your hand,

There’s only so much I can take and this is too much to stand,

Why is it you play me for the fool, after all, I am not,

Maybe you over looked that tiny detail, maybe you simply forgot,

I knew these feelings should have been kept inside,

I may still be breathing but under the cover of my chest, a part of me just died,

I never wanted to be the one used in your search for the truth,

Your methods are unforgiving and certainly uncouth,

I’ve been there for you every step of the way,

How could you turn around and turn me away?

How could you manage to help my friends unknowingly hurt me?

You’re a liar, a snake, and a manipulator and I know you see,

You use us all, all of the people you care about the most,

Play it like a game, but too embarrassed to boast,

Afraid they’ll look back at you with a curious look in their eye,

Too afraid they’ll catch on and question you with why,

It’s different for you, for you have no ties,

We all had deep emotions and no knowledge of your lies,

Never question your methods, for you’re never wrong,

Tell me that next time you stuff weed into that bong,

Don’t turn everything around and point the blame at me,

For you are wrong and you better begin to see,

Appreciate what you’ve got before it’s all taken away from you,

I sure as hell won’t stick around if this is all you do,

You’ve fooled us all with your serenading words,

You knew it, and that’s the way you preferred,

Never thinking we’d mind because you knew how deeply our feelings ran,

Guess you can be wrong, I can’t even look at you, none of us can,

So now I pray the questions fall hard and the lessons well taught,

Played us all for the fools you forgot, we are not.

<3 Webster

Not Wanted Here

I‘m sitting here under your window pane, wondering why I don’t belong here anymore,

And I’m sitting here trying to figure out how it is you can just walk away, just shut the door,

Thinking about what I should have said, and how sometimes things just don’t work out,

It’s ok, I had my doubts,

Throwing rocks onto the ledge I hum a tune that belongs to us, my dear,

For I’m not wanted here,

I’m not wanted here, not there, no not anywhere,

I keep hiding in the shadow of your mistakes, but you don’t seem to care,

Can’t seem to understand how fast I sank,

My memory just faded and my mind, completely blank,

Forgetting all my current thoughts, I lay there in the sweet summer grass and let go,

I feel as if my conscience rambles on without my saying so,

I rest my head and close my eyes,

But still I can’t forget all your lies,

Not one,

Your sad apology rings in and out and still your damage has been done,

Lying there, passing thoughts through my head,

I wonder how you could be so blind to the winding road ahead,

Throwing my rocks aside, I hum our tune my dear,

For I’m not wanted here.

<3 Webster

Just Because You're in Love

Put your foot on the peddle and run away to the shore,

Tell me your mind’s made up and you’ve never wanted anything more,

Tell me this is everything you need and what your dreams are made of,

Just don’t tell me you’re leaving me, just because you’re in love,

Tell me that you’re happy, completely complete,

Tell me that he makes your world colorful and sweet,

Tell me that life will be easier and a little more fun,

Just don’t tell me that this summer fling won’t ever be done,

Tell me that there’s a permanent smile drawn on your face,

Tell me that you’re ready to dream big and go out for the chase,

Tell me that you see your future so warm and so bright,

Just don’t tell me that each day spent with him serves as such a delight,

So go ahead, run away to the shore,

Tell me that you love me and you miss me more than you ever have before,

Tell me that this is real and what happiness is made of,

Just don’t tell me you forgot about me, just because you’re in love.

<3 Webster

Chattahoochie - Alan Jackson

Its nights like these when I want those nights,

Wish I could overlook your flaws an forget all our fights.

Replace all the good things with what had been so wrong,

Nothing more could have felt so right,

I wish I could feel that kind of love again,

Loving every second of my life, cherishing every place we had been,

Looking after this time that is now irreplaceable,

But somehow my mind keeps begging me to make these memories untraceable...

Only a Picture

Sitting here, I’m frozen in your warm, study glance,

For eyes so tender and sweet, you hold me here in this sinister trance,

I never thought it possible that I’d ever see you again,

I was left with only your memory and the question of what could have been,

Caught up in this moment, my body sits stagnant, here,

Taking in this memory of a time you held so dear,

I would give anything to sit like this for as long as I live,

I’m tired of always wondering what I could have changed; I have nothing left to give,

I let go a sigh as I get to my feet,

A sure sigh of another defeat,

I walk to the light switch, and look up at the bulb, shaky in the fixture,

As I remind myself, it was only a picture.

<3 Webster

Poisen

Moonlight fills my surroundings as my vision twists and turns,

I can feel it as it trickles down, I can feel it as it burns,

Watch me stumble as I try to regain my poise,

Not caring what happens to me or the blessings it destroys,

Covering up what so badly I want but is no longer mine,

Let the feeling of someone there next to me and the poison, combine,

Be a different person, be stronger then you are,

Drink the liquid fire down; leave not a drop in the jar,

Fill yourself with this sin, so easily contained,

Watch as the pain disappears and your sorrows rearranged,

Moonlight fills my surroundings as my vision twists and turns,

Live for this feeling, the power and the burn.


**To Kellie :) Happy 21st!

For Just One Second

Give me your eyes just for a second so I can make you see,

All that's been done here, everything you've done to me,

Look my way for just a second, so you can see just what he's done to you,

So I can show you what to do,

Why can't you see what he's done, why can't you realize what he's destroyed,

Please don't continue to sit there when I can see that you're annoyed,

Be the man I know you can be and fix what you let go,

Give me your eyes for one minute so you know how much you hurt me, All I want is you to know,

Step into my shoes, but don't try to run,

Even as watching you fall would be my idea of fun,

Don't let him do this, don't let him ruin you,

Give me your eyes for just one minute so I can show you what you do,

So I can take you back to when you held my hand,

Maybe then for just one second you will understand,

Just help me believe it was all his fault, for it can't be yours,

You would never hurt me like this, you said you'd never leave me behind this closed door,

Lend me your eyes for just one second so you can help me to see,

Help me to understand why you've done this to me,

Look into my eyes, like you used to do back then, 

Give me your heart for just one more second, so that I can feel like me again.

A Cheater's Heart

I can see it, written all over your face,

You wish you could be anywhere but anywhere near this place,

But just slow it down, try to take it easy,

Don’t always think you have to try so hard to please me,

No matter what you do, you can’t get rid of me, just thought you should know,

I care too much to just let all these feelings go,

Just remember that I’ll always be right here, waiting for you to make up your mind,

Wishing I could stop time in this moment, then pause and rewind,

Don’t want to lose this feeling, a happiness new to my heart,

Don’t know what to say, what to do or even where to start,

Feel like I just got myself into something I can’t escape from,

Only ever wanting what I couldn’t have became habit that’s more than dumb,

It’s all the little things that make you feel like this,

Like when he holds you in his arms or the taste of his kiss,

Its feeling like you’re the only one, when in reality you’re nothing at all,

They are only there to catch you because they know you’re going to fall,

But you drive too fast and you love to long,

Replace real feelings for something you believe is too strong,

Spin your tires and drive away,

Listen to the rubber burn instead of the things I need to say,

Walk away from me like nothing lies between us,

If it makes you feel so good, then just throw away this trust,

Tell another lie, you make sound so good,

Make things seem like you’ve done everything you should,

Tell me what I want to hear, lay it on me thick,

Watch me as I am swept away by your clever little trick,

Lure me into a trap that’s soon to spring shut,

All the while knowing it’d leave the scar, before it’d leave the cut,

Turn me into the liar, place the blame on me,

Turn me into the bad guy or whatever you want me to be,

Pull all your puppet strings and teach me how to dance,

Play with me all you want while you hold me here in this trance,

You can play me like a record, you can take me for a spin,

But don’t expect me to coming running back to this place ever again,

Take the long road home, think about what you’ve done,

You can just think of me as a prize you’ve never really won,

A cheating heart has a different beat, a different way to feel,

Lied so much it doesn’t know what is fake and what’s always been real,

Caught between two lies but listening to your heart,

There was never a faster way to have it torn apart,

Why have I hung onto something that’s always been so fake?

Making friends out of people who never think to give before they take,

And when they take, they make sure they take the very best of you,

But it’s always going to be your fault for they were sure you always knew,

And yet the only way I’d get over you is if you were every bit of gone,

Life with you standing right here makes it so hard to move on,

Sitting here staring into your eyes,

There’s a part of me that’s hoping that this fire somehow, just dies,

Its funny how it hurts so much, but you can always see the light,

Inspiration so concrete was too much motivation for a fight,

Give me that look as you close the driver’s door,

I smile as I watch you tighten your grip and slam the peddle to the floor,

A cheater’s heart has a different beat, a different way to feel,

Should never arose a reason for my broken heart to heal,

My smile only grew bigger as, for the last time, he drove away,

A cheater’s heart has a different beat, and a different price to pay,

Slowly I turn away as the flames explode around me,

Feel the heat cures my skin as it tumbles over me, like waves of a dead sea,

Feel my heart reach out to something that’s always been too far gone,

Just had to give my heart the push to somehow move on,

The only way I’d get over him was if he were every bit of gone,

Life with him standing right here made it so hard to move on,

Sitting here, staring into his eyes,

I knew it was only a matter of time before he’d pay for all his lies.

<3 Webster